I hate that money rules us so much. We base everything around that dollar sign and it sickens me! 

Most days I debate bankruptcy so I can NOT have debt anymore. 

End of the month is the worst- get paid and its gone just as quickly. Bills,groceries,debt,rent,car payment. When does it end!? 

Need to find a better way to get past this and not let money rule our lives…but its sooooo hard!!!!! 

We dont starve by any means, were all clothed with a roof over our heads but sometimes i feel completely defeated. I need to not let it rule our lives so much and find other value in life. 

We all get sucked into the cycle, its how we live and have been conditioned to live. So be it- but that doesnt mean we cant rise above it and realize money does not determine or happiness. People out there live on less and i need to be thankful and grateful for what I do have….

And so it begins. 



What Am I Doing?

The thing is, I don’t know. Do any of us really know what we’re doing?

All I know is, things need to get better and they will- in time.

We’re moving again! UGHHHHHHH. This place that we’re in was supposed to be our home for a while, but after living here for 3 months we’ve discovered there’s never any hot water and the power bill is insane and I refuse to live here any longer. Luckily I know a guy who rents amazing places and one of my fav units just came up for rental and we swooped it up in two days. Talk about the universe helping (thanks universe!) LOL

We give our 30 day notice tomorrow and start packing ASAP!

The place we are moving to is a dream. Screened patio, walking trail, our own driveway  and large bedrooms! We couldn’t be any more excited.

Now on top of all of this we are also trying to conceive baby no.2 *yep, we’re crazy!*

We feel it’s time. Jax needs a sibling, I have baby fever and want a tiny little baby to cuddle and care for again and in the end we don’t feel comfortable having only 1 child. We are definitely looking forward to doing home pregnancy tests soon.

In regards to my weight loss- February has been hard I’m not going to lie. It is called the most depressing month of the year right?! LOL I’m happy to say I’m back at it though. Counting calories, being positive about the end goal. It’s hard but I have to keep at it.

That’s it for a life update, nothing too crazy. We actually live a very boring life HAHA boring is good right? I always said it shows stability and sanity. *Though I’m not sane at all* 😉 Are any of us actually sane? Doubt it.



Hello World

Recently my Mum recommended a series on Netflix called ” Kindness Diaries”.  With an open mind I clicked episode one and started to watch. With Brennan watching as well we both sat , fixated on the tv. By the end of the first episode we both sat there- thinking and then discussing. I don’t want to post any spoilers, but I will say this: Wow! What an eye opening show. It’s now made me think about how I need to live my life. With kindness, and freedom of power, money,etc. Live with love and laughter, give when you can, receive the great things that come along with being a human.

We live in such a fast paced society, buying,eating, go go go! Never taking a minute to just stop, look at ourselves and our loved ones and just be happy and grateful for what we have and where we are. So many in the world have nothing and yet are the most well rounded, happy and self reliant people. They don’t base their happiness on money, things or who gives them what.

Happiness can be found in some the smallest places. With just a smile, hug or friendly hello you can make someones day a bit brighter.

I personally want to live better. I want less money, less things and more smiles, more love more life.

It’s hard to change the way you’ve spent your whole life thinking. I’m negative, I generally dislike the population for one reason or another, I suffer from OCD so I find life hard to enjoy moments when I’m living in my head worrying and anxious about every detail. I don’t have a religion to focus my faith on, I don’t have hobbies or other creative outlets. So I NEED to change. Not change me as a person because I like myself the way I am, I would however like to change my way of thought. Change how I live, base my happiness on the energy I put forth in the world, maybe just maybe even seek out a higher power and find a religion that makes me feel great about life and gives me faith to pursue a longer and more peaceful existence. I’ve always said nature is my religion and I strongly believe in that. It’s where I feel calm and at home. Barefoot in dirt with the the Earth surrounding me. I need to get back to that mind frame. Live simpler and have an abundance of happiness.

This wont be easy and it wont happen over night but I’m promising myself that I can do this. I also want to get back into blogging- so look out world, here I come!


I’m lost.

Hey all. 

I know I’ve been absent on here and I’m sorry! Recently I’ve been trying to decide on what to do with this blog. Reinvent it? Delete?  Not sure. 

I don’t want my blog to be another “Mum blog” ya know? I want it to reflect who I truly am. I would also like to to be more horror based with with some movie reviews,etc.

The hard thing is finding time to sit down at a computer and get to work. My day is filled with taking care of a toddler and doing my daily house wife stuff lol lame but true. 

Anyhow- I promise I will get this blog up and running again. I just want to get a theme and proper material ready for it. 


Let’s Talk: CraveTV

Netflix Who? 

Shomi What? 

CraveTV is where it’s at! A year ago we subscribed and I was not impressed. Always buffering *insert eyeroll* and not enough options. So I gave up. 

This month we decided to give it another go and hoping they maybe had better streaming  and more options. Long story short I’m impressed! My fiancé and I love it so much.

I’m Canadian so it costs $8.39 a month (Netflix is $7.99)- we don’t subscribe to a television service. We have Internet and the sites we sub to for streaming shows. Saving money! 

Decent pricing, great selection and the streaming capabilities are fast fast fast. Just as good as Netflix (if not better) we never wait for anything to load nor does a program get interrupted. 

Way to go CraveTV! I love you. 

Banana Bread Smoothie

Early morning, dishes need to be done and a toddler with a full diaper!!! Ugh. The joys of motherhood! 

Both of us are hungry but I don’t have the energy to cook breakfast. Yesterday I had some dental work done and my sleep the night before was not sufficient. Wanting to fill our tummies with something packed with protein, vitamins and pure goodness I always make this smoothie for us. 

 It’s like eating a bowl of oatmeal without the hassle of bowls,spoons and too much brown sugar (cuz we all do that!)  It also tastes like banana bread! 

Follow this recipe and enjoy the flavour explosion! 

1 cup of almond milk 

1 banana 

1/2 cup of oats

Tsp. cinnamon 

Tablespoon of coconut oil 

2 dates (pits removed) 

Optional: chia seeds & maple syrup 
I microwave my cup of milk (for 45 seconds) before pouring it into my Bullet. 

Toss all the ingredients into blender of choice and blend for 30 secs – 1 minute. 

*makes one serving* 

Pour and enjoy! 

Where have I been? 

No where! Just trying to focus on life and goals. Still eating clean, focusing on weight loss. I turned 31 on the 3rd of January (eek) and I’m also taking a dive into Minimalism. 

My mum is doing it before they sell their home and I kind of want to join her. We’ve been living in our apartment for 2 months and our walk in closet is a storage room! Ceiling to floor boxes of stuff we clearly don’t use or think of. It frustrates me and even gives me a tiny bit of anxiety. I need that space! Was hoping to even have it as an office area. 

So before I overwhelm myself with that gruelling task, I’m starting in the kitchen first. Lots to be organized! 

Other than all that, I’m still alive and well. Planning out each day, hopeful for the future. Trying to be productive through out my day. 

Check out this documentary on Netflix! Totally changed how I feel about “stuff”: 

Click Me

Back to regular life…

Christmas has come and gone. Though I’m sad and miss it already- I’m also excited to get back to regular life. 

Trying to think of things to blog about. Im thinking of making a list of my favorite YouTube channels, movies and other things.

All while still keeping my posts about weight loss and Mum life.